It's here. It is finally here. But no, if I am honest, that is not excitement you hear in my voice, or even what leaps off the page.
I mean, yeah. In some ways I am excited. Very very excited, but in others I am not. But I am hoping that my excitement will eventually outweigh my non-excitement. Many of my friends arrived yesterday- the new staff is here! YAY. Only I leave. Minus the two I worked with all summer, I will only spend a couple of hours with them. Such a bummer. But the thing that is the scariest to me, is that Madison, WI has become home to me. Now, I am leaving it for 10.5 months. What if I can't make Uganda home?
Man, what ifs could kill a person. Like for real.
I am listening to iTunes radio and Kari Jobe's "Find You on My Knees" just came on. The reason I mention this is because there is a line that says: "I will find you in the place I'm in". And it is true. The whole reason I am going to Uganda is to learn more about God... He would not lead me somewhere only to leave me high and dry.
Keep praying I keep getting perspective. Cause mine is all sorts of screwed up.
I mean, yeah. In some ways I am excited. Very very excited, but in others I am not. But I am hoping that my excitement will eventually outweigh my non-excitement. Many of my friends arrived yesterday- the new staff is here! YAY. Only I leave. Minus the two I worked with all summer, I will only spend a couple of hours with them. Such a bummer. But the thing that is the scariest to me, is that Madison, WI has become home to me. Now, I am leaving it for 10.5 months. What if I can't make Uganda home?
Man, what ifs could kill a person. Like for real.
I am listening to iTunes radio and Kari Jobe's "Find You on My Knees" just came on. The reason I mention this is because there is a line that says: "I will find you in the place I'm in". And it is true. The whole reason I am going to Uganda is to learn more about God... He would not lead me somewhere only to leave me high and dry.
Keep praying I keep getting perspective. Cause mine is all sorts of screwed up.
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