UGH

    I know I said I was going to post about this past trip, but I can't. Not right now. Because right now, I do not know what I feel. Yes, the trip was fantastic. So much more than I ever dreamed it would be. Seriously. So why don't I know what I feel? Simple: the children's home I spent three weeks at was shut down by the government. The world of those children was torn asunder. There is so much more that I want to say about what is going on, but I need to be extremely cautious about what I say online.
    I am pretty sure I have no more tears left.. at first, I could not figure out why I was constantly crying. Then God pointed out: I opened up my heart to them. I poured out everything I had and then refilled and poured out more. I miss them like crazy, but I know, if at no other time, I will see them when our Heavenly Father says, "Welcome Home". Not something I really want to think about. But the whole thing is looking a whole lot better. But pray.
    I never really thought that I would open up my heart so fully, but I did. To 35 amazing children. Well, two of them are not children any more. So 33. I fell in love. Over and over. I wish I could tell you stories. Put up their pictures. Tell you their names. Alas, my heart grieves that you cannot meet them yet. Once I get the clearance though.. hahaha
    So pray. Pray they will always rely on God, no matter where they are at.

***Sorry, I definitely rambled.